I was talking with a friend about how it is much easier to feel comfortable around someone that you have just met if you are not impressed by your initial impression of this person. It's like, "I don't care what you think. This is who I am." I think this may lead some people that I am not so fond of to take a liking to me.

Fuck insecurity. I'm so passed that high school bullshit. For someone that dislikes most people, it is just so jarring for me to be truly impressed by a person, and being around them feels like some undeserved reward.

I used to believe that I could see ultraviolet and infrared light. When I was riding to school in the morning in my carpool, I would squint at the sun and rainbows of color would swim around the periphery of my vision. I was probably just fucking up my vision permanently, but when I did that, I saw a "color" that I was not in the rainbow. I know that this scientifically impossible, and my inability to describe it would further debunk it's existence. However, it exists for me (without the aid of psychotropic drugs, mind you), and to deny it would require me to deny all my senses.